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Operation: Constant Clarity, Harvest Day One

Greetings Kids, well its finally here, the beginning of the harvest period for the 18:1 project Operation Constant Clarity. As you may recall this is a project to create an RSO-based medication with an 18:1 CBD:THC ratio. To that end we have started a few ultra-high CBD strain plants called CB Diesel, 20:1 ratio. The rest are a menagerie of THC standard indicas like White Widow, Tahoe Cure and a little Gorilla Glue #4.

So as luck would have it the first plants to be finished are the White Widows since everything else was either started later or the strain naturally goes longer during bloom. The WW is an 8-week wonder and according to the microscope a few days back, they were ready.

As it turns out, that WW was also the only plant in that tent that we had trellised and the results were interesting. For one thing it further supports the idea that this trellis trick is more than just a trick and in every case there have been very positive improvements to the growing plant as a direct re…

A question for your caregiver or doctor:

So next time you are in your neurologists office and he or she claims there is nothing more they can do, ask them this question:
Cannabis has helped people deal with that which cannot easily be dealt with for thousands of years. How can anyone be surprised that it helps dementia patients, us maybe most of all?


Crazytown: A Grow Update

A short grow video update of tent #2, was-veg, is now bloom with the craziest cast of characters I have seen in a crop in a long while....in about three weeks this room is going to be intense AF; between the Wall O Bud, the mutant Tahoes and the crazy high CBD plants, its going to be a wild, wild ride.....taking video today because I think when I take video again it will be useful to see "before", the seeds of this insanity...

Now I have always been the one to try something weird, envision the results and then try to build something else based on those results. Well looking at the above tent, the way things are turning out it made me see something interesting and I am thinking of adjusting my grow method for a crop to see if it results in what I hope...

The Status Quo: Right now if I want to have four random plants (well all fems, all ones I pick out) I have a 6x8x4 tent to do it in. Now normally for indoor we want a certain phenotype mostly leaning indica, the short squat …

Time Flies When You Have Dementia..

This won't be long because there isn't much to say but the realization I had yesterday was so striking, I had to tell someone. From the beginning I have noticed that time became unreliable as the dementia set in. Time would seem to speed up, slow down, jump about and more. One trend that I noticed back then was that time seemed to be accelerating.

Wind the hands of time forward to this week and my BFO. My realization came in the form of an axiom for living with dementia....time does speed up and there comes a point where time has advanced to such a degree that seconds, minutes and hours no longer really mean anything to me. Its like this:

Your smartphone does alot and it does so very quickly. So quickly in fact that most components inside it measure time in milliseconds or 1/1000th of a second. Lots can happen at the machine-level in a single second of time and so that count of milliseconds is useful.

However as a human, any individual millisecond is without import or meaning…

The more things change, the less they seem like they were...

Small update for any stray readers of this blog. I feel like I am approaching the far end of the MCI period. For better or worse, thanks to the quirks of LBD I am still able to write in this blog and sound OK BUT the way the progression is going, in the beginning I was semi-normal most hours of the day with a few hours of heavy dementia sprinkled in. Years go by and its about 50/50: half the time I am semi-normal and half the time I was a drooling idiot, barely capable of understanding Mario Bros.

Now? Things have reached a point where the hours of clarity of the exception and not the rule. I get 1-3 hours of usefulness a few times per day, the rest of the time I am so fogged I cannot play games or understand TV or movies. I do alot of sitting.

I have also mentioned being detached from time; I haven't used a watch in months and a 24 hour day is a pretty useless concept to me. In fact the only useful measure of time for me is the calendar month. Anything less is like anyone else m…

Frozen stance, tremors and other dementia fun: An Engineers Perspective

Greetings to all eight of my readers; make yourself comfortable because this I think is an important one to get your head wrapped around.

I find myself at surprising intersection between engineering and disease, or at least my own. I have been a software engineer for more than two decades and hardware long before that. I only state that in order to impress upon the reader that after so long I have a pretty good sense of how machines think and how they work, particularly when it comes to computer systems.

Since being diagnosed I have used my own condition as a laboratory of sorts to try and understand what is happening to me. It has always been the case with me that the more I understand a danger or threat, the easier it is to deal with. Others may be that way too, I don't know.

One of the major categories of things I have been trying to sort out is the seemingly random nature of the motor skill problems, a blessing from the Parkinsons side of things: frozen stance (where patient …

Maybe a useful memory strengthening tool for progressive dementia

Greetings kids, Jeff here with a simple yet powerful tool for working with folks with dementia. This tool is quite old yet I do not recall it being used this way. It may be called something different for your computer but at its heart, this is a simple tool on the same level as Solitataire and Minesweeper that does ones simple job: it takes an image file and turns it into a jigsaw puzzle for the user to solve.  Since it is on the computer you can easily configure how complex or simple it is and of course which image it uses and here lies the neat part for us.

Instead of using scenic views of mountain ranges or flower gardens, you create a folder with pictures of loved ones, family members and any other people in the patients life in it. In addition, you can use free tools to add simple labels to them so each can be labeled with the subjects name and other important data. This then becomes a cross between a puzzle and a something to help cement memories of faces to names in the patien…

18:1 Project Update

Update: Since the WW were looking more mature than the others I took some microscope shots to check for "doneness" of trichomes. The pics were actually kinda pretty so I set them to some smooth cool music from my guitar teacher, Chicago Bluesman Dave Specter. if you are ever in Chi-town, check him out for a first-class show.....

Sometimes growing can seem to be such an action-less endeavor but if you have dementia it can be the most perfect thing. The 18:1 project went side-ways any number of times but after much rearranging of the deck chairs we are finally in something like a home-stretch: we have flowering high CBD plants and flowering high THC plants. In the end they will be processed into RSO in a specific formulation of 18 parts CBD to 1 part THC. I think I will call the resulting fluid Voodoo Juice. Hey its a name and I will need to stop calling it RSO because it will no longer be the text-book definition of Rick Simpson Oil.

Whatever.

The bottom line is, barring nat…

Apathy: it's not as bad as you think and it's worse than you ever thought it could be.

I almost didn't write this due to apathy which is a weird thing to admit to but its true, I nearly did not...yes apathy comes with the territory, I can't change that, although I do try to understand it, the apathy becomes less heinous that way.

But apathy is an undeniable part of dementia but not to point out the obvious (recall: I too have dementia and so consider the source) but if you really had apathy you would not give a shit that you do.

Consider this: what you may be experiencing may not be out-and-out apathy but a part of your mind recognizing the futility of trying things you know are beyond your ability to fully comprehend and therefore, successfully complete. When those kinds of things are all that are on your menu daily, you end up doing nothing. I know because thats exactly what happened to me. I try to make light of these situations, I try to but they are painfully true:



And in fact I try to use that same apathy to my own (sanitys') benefit:




So yeah apathy …

I finally won one.....

Recently I concocted a kind of "find the bright side" message, all about celebrating your victories that you have.

 In this case it involves one of the few things I was still able to do for my wife as a tech-head and that was to be able to "rip" any video she wanted to watch so we could see it on our big-screen (well, by our standards) TV where we can both be comfortable. Alas its been a kind of cold war between people trying to rip YouTube videos and YouTube trying to stop them.  As of Jan 1 this year, YouTube pulled ahead in the technological arms race....since then I have been unable to provide these for my wife in the fashion in which she is accustomed...now the streams just....stop if you try to view them with anything outside YouTube...how useless can a feature get?

What made this frustrating is that not that long ago I was up to the task of staying a step ahead of them and most of those on the Internet interested in stopping me from doing something. That…

The Lighter Side of Dementia..

Just some extra funny stuff that rolled across the Desk of Lunacy this week...












Some more notes on the trellis technique...

Greetings kids, Jeff here with a minor grow update. I thought I would toss some pics up going into better detail on the trellis upgrades. What you see above are two plants, one pretty mature for a vegged plant (had been a mother plant, explains the goofy growth pattern; if you had kids this way you would look goofy too), a CB Diesel (20:1 CBD:THC profile) and the smaller brighter green thing on the left is either a Gorilla Glue #4, Tahoe Cure, or White Widow. I am thinking Tahoe Cure due to leaf shape but could be any of the three, though WW phenos look way different to my eyes. Doesn't matter; its all THC (except for the two remaining CB Diesels, one against the wall and the other almost out of frame lower-left).
Now normally you would trellis your plants to get more product from them but right now I am trellising these for a different reason entirely: I am throwing my normally veg tent to flower and if some of these got heavily budded they would snap from the weight. To prevent…

My Strategy for Writing with Brain Damage

Aphasia, or "expressive aphasia" in my case sucks because it can cripple any chances at communication. My spoken or verbal aphasia at this point is so bad I can't make full sentences...but my writing is much much better, far closer to how I used to that any other form of communication.

Now being able to type and being able to write are two very different things and while I do have days where I just cannot master the process of describing what is in my head, thats maybe 5% of the days that I can't write. The rest are some form of "I can write in general but cannot retrieve enough facts from memory to write about subject X"...like there is a mental block on writing anything on the target subject.

This really screwed me up at first because I had so many things I had to write down, get documented before I no longer could. Things about how the house is wired, how to reboot the media servers or how to archive a set top box or how to maintain our personal cloud o…

Odd Man Out

Sometimes I wonder whats wrong with me. I mean I know I have dementia and LBD to be specific  but I mean I don't seem to be reacting to this dementia business the way I am supposed to be. I recently found myself on Twitter, much to my great surprise. I was thought that I would rather pound my balls flat with a meat tenderizer than spend any time on Twitter for any reason I could think of. Thats been my attitude ever since 2008 or so and I was working at Sony on the first XPeria phones which really went overboard with integrating social media of the time. Two of the bigs at the time tha tare still going were Facebook and Twitter. One of the guiding principles of product dev at Sony was you ate your own dog-food, so to speak. In other words as much as I found Facebook, Twitter and at the time MySpace to be a waste of brain cells and once the product was released (and I left Sony for a sabbatical of sorts) I never touched either again for over a decade.

Now as my dementia has gotten…