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I got the Taco Bell Tostada Blues....


One of the paradoxes of dementia is that on one hand you are pretty ambivalent about when you die, yet on the other hand little things can easily become big disappointments.

I don't know if its just easier to get your hopes up when you have dementia but regardless of how or why, it doesn't take much for a situation to seem worse than it is. That said, I spent all day jonesing for a tostada and didn't think twice when the missus offered to pick some up for dinner tonight. I was on cloud 9 all day, didn't eat a thing to be really ready for these tostadas when she got home....

I will let a video I made speak for itself....wanna go postal on someone now...


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