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People can ask for what seem like the simplest of things...

People mean well. I get it. I also get their attempt at making me feel useful by asking me to do what would have been meaningless tasks under any other situation. The problem is, they don't really *get* how difficult a task is for you, let alone the impact on you of failing at something perceived to be so simple.

Because if failing at something *might* make you feel like crap, you can be sure failing tasks that are considered to be simple, such as those you might assign to a child and the worst....consider...


I got the Taco Bell Tostada Blues....

One of the paradoxes of dementia is that on one hand you are pretty ambivalent about when you die, yet on the other hand little things can easily become big disappointments.

I don't know if its just easier to get your hopes up when you have dementia but regardless of how or why, it doesn't take much for a situation to seem worse than it is. That said, I spent all day jonesing for a tostada and didn't think twice when the missus offered to pick some up for dinner tonight. I was on cloud 9 all day, didn't eat a thing to be really ready for these tostadas when she got home....

I will let a video I made speak for itself....wanna go postal on someone now...


Preview of a Final Project: 18:1 RSO

I honestly thought I was done with this project stuff but the idea for one came after discussions with my grow mentor, an idea I think is too important not to at least attempt. The 18:1 high CBD/low THC mix I use is a magic key but I gotta keep doing it or worse, remember to keep doing it when things are bad. Hey, having it is way better than not, make no mistake. I just wished the effects lasted longer and were more even...then an friend who knows of my love of RSO suggested making a high-CBD version to try. So I decided to try one last project, a simple one really, to create an 18:1 RSO. Of course I won't have labs to test with but I am starting with a special strain called CB Diesel, carries a 20:1 CBD:THC ratio:




Now the actual ratio here might be slightly higher than 20:1 but if so, I can offset that problem by introducing some more pure play indica power like the venerable White Widow:


As for the project itself, I simply need to grow two of each strain, turn each into RSO (a…

Happy 4th of July from Living With Lewy Bodies

Happy 4th of July fellow Nuts! Because the CBD gives me my brain back I decided to make this video for other dementia folks...


Dementia Cannabis Update

Update: 22 July
Project started, grow page and journal is here:

Operation: Constant Clarity


This is one of the most difficult posts I have had to write, mostly because I "had" to. Allow me to explain and I promise by the end you will not only understand the "difficulty" and the "had to" bit but also I hope you come away with a few new assumptions or conclusions, you pick and if all that passes you by, perhaps you will find illumination as this is some serious "dementia from the inside out" kinda shit.

The 18:1 Theory
Before I tell you what happened, please recall I have expressed a theory or hypothesis on the effects of a cannabis extract/concentrate that tests out to have a CBD:THC ratio of 18-1 on the demented mind. By demented I mean any brain with not just dementia but anything that alters so-called normal operation. I don't mean anything like it fixes everything, rather there are things that are fixed by this like PTSD and ADD that you …

Am I The Only One Sick of Trumps Media Masturbation?

Happy 4th of July America! This day used to be about our independence but as of this year and forever more Trump wants it to be about himself. He wants his tanks, his planes, his parade and almost more importantly, he wants, no needs insulation from those who might call bullshit on his fantasies. He is selling tickets to people who are guaranteed to be non-hecklers but more importantly for a holiday for everyone, they must be rabid Trump supporters.

For his calendar he hopes to sell later in the year, Trump will surround himself with generals, admirals and what-not, all while jets to fly-overs, not sure what they think they will show by flying Air Force One overhead but this is Trumps fantasy, all for the many photo-ops he will need heading into the 2020 election.

As a veteran I find it odious that he would pull this with our military, making them aggrandize him while at the same time Trump is targeting service members with families with undocumented members. There is just so much wr…